Not knowing at all what I was going to paint, I obtained a canvas and just began applying the paint until something emerged.
About a month after I painted "The Blue Hand of Creation" I was surfing the Internet reading Mayan Astrology. I found a site http://www.astrodreamadvisor.com/free_mayan_readings.html that described my conscious self as follows:
"Blue Hand is a gateway, an opening, a portal from one understanding to another. A clue to the meaning of Blue Hand is found in the meditation, "I am, by thinly veiled design, the threshold to other dimensions. In my ending is my beginning. The initatory gateway awaits."
I remember sitting there reading this thinking to myself, "Where have I seen this blue hand?" And then I walked into the living room and looked on the wall. Needless to say, I was shocked that I had somehow painted what the Mayans considered to be my conscious self.
Nonetheless, I understood that my place in this world was to express that creativity from within. That to suppress it was to kill myself slowly. I understood that my mind is a vortex of worlds from which I can express art and wisdom and tell stories and that I just have to reach out my hand to grasp this creative power.